We cope with life's seasons by admitting we can't control the vast majority of what happens around us. Sometimes it helps--we keep trudging on and gripe about it in jest with each other, all while putting our faith into the idea that yes, this actually WILL pass. Someday. Somehow.
So, over the past 8ish months, I have been working as a therapist intern at an inner-city substance abuse treatment facility. It's been incredibly eye-opening, both from a professional standpoint, and a personal one. During supervision sessions, I've spent a lot of time talking about why clients do the things they do. Why do they … Continue reading Therapizing the Therapist
It’s 11:45am and I’m standing at the train station waiting to go to work, the sky hanging low and heavy with the promise of sleet. I'm late. I’ve just finished my morning internship shift, where I processed two clients out of our therapeutic relationship together because they’re both graduating next week, and I’m feeling pensive … Continue reading What Matters Most is How Well You Walk Through the Fire
TW: This post talks about relationship abuse & sexual abuse, and contains some foul language. Recently, I've been thinking a lot about past relationships. Not just my most recent ended relationship, but my marriage, and a particularly abusive relationship that I endured for two years in college. But, mostly, I've been thinking about that abusive … Continue reading It Happened. Now It’s (Finally) Time to Heal.
I’ve been sick with a garden variety of head colds, chest colds, and sinus infections since early January. Since Monday of last week, I’ve been battling fatigue and a pretty intense cough that sent me to the urgent care on Thursday. They x-rayed me, tapped my sinuses, listened to my lungs, and decided to give … Continue reading Perfectionism makes me sick—literally
I've had a weird ache in my heart for some time now for my last relationship. It's not the kind of ache that makes me wish I had it back, nor is it the kind of ache that makes me yearn for my ex. Since we broke up in October, I haven't questioned once whether … Continue reading Longing for Familiarity
I've come to realize about myself over the past several years that I am somewhat prone to a fear of intimacy. Okay, so, that's kind of an understatement. I am not prone to a fear of intimacy--I'm damn scared of intimacy sometimes. I'm not talking about the kind of intimacy you have with a new … Continue reading The Fear of Intimacy, or How I Know I Still Need Therapy