Today is the anniversary of what would've been 5 years of marriage for me. I'm a little stunned by how wholly and powerfully my life has changed since then. I still celebrate this day in my own little way, like a quiet emotional nod and wink to my past self. It's like a recognition of … Continue reading Happy Anniversary to Me
Ever since Friday, I've been enveloped in this strange blanket of tender, complicated emotions. With my own bittersweet memories of pain and loss washing over me in waves, coupled with the tragic loss of a favorite musician to an all-too-predictable (and all-too-preventable) suicide, I've been taken over by some force of tragic optimism. I spent … Continue reading Make Tiny Changes
If you are hurting, please just talk to someone. Anyone. Don't let the world wake up hurting in your absence. We need you here.
I think I've said this on here before, but spring tends to be really hard for me. *rolls eyes*. Duh, I've only been saying that for like, three months now. It's not just the effects of changing weather, as we shift from cold, blustery days into cool, dewy nights. Yes, the lingering of winter can … Continue reading The Anniversary Effect
In this moment I am sitting on a comfy couch, hedgehog in my lap, as a dog barks anxiously outside my doors. I've rented an Airbnb up north for myself and my hedgie for the weekend--just the two of us--as a thank you and congratulations to myself for completing the first year of internships without … Continue reading On Self-Care…
It's a beautiful, 50-degree, sun-shiny spring day today—finally. I'm sitting at one of my favorite cafes, looking out at the 4-foot tall piles of snow on the street corners, anxiously awaiting the arrival of our first 60-degree day this weekend. After what has felt like the longest winter in ages, the spring sun is a … Continue reading Spring Thinking
Well, I'm finally headed back to see my therapist today, for the first time since November. It's a little nerve-wracking. I feel like a dog with my tail between my legs, for no reason at all except that I stopped scheduling appointments with him out of the blue back in November and never sent an … Continue reading It’s Better to Burn Out… Or Is It? Nah, Not Really.