About a month and a half ago, I wrote a post about how I was nearly certain my relationship was going to end because of my boyfriend's need and desire to move back home to Indiana to be closer to his son (we're in Minnesota). I got frantic for a few weeks, wracked with anxiety … Continue reading Nothing Stays the Same, and That’s OK
I'm here,still sober & kickin' on this quiet October 1st. It's getting chilly up here in the North, though we're due to have an unseasonably warm burst of air midweek. I can't say I'm ready for winter to make her impending return. My last year of school is in full swing. I am settled in … Continue reading Simple Thoughts on Self-Care
Today marks 800 continuous days of sobriety. I've got little to say, except that I'm thankful, and a little surprised by how entirely normal it feels--most of the time. Life isn't perfect; I'm still running on a pretty steady stream of cortisol and adrenaline, my body is acting strangely (I fainted last Thursday--an actual blackout … Continue reading 800 Days of Sobriety
tw: talk about eating disorders. One thing I haven't spent a lot of time exploring in this space of mine is the fact that during my 10th-, 11th-, and 12th-grade years of high school, I suffered quietly with an eating disorder. I don't know exactly how it'd be diagnosed today, but I think the closest … Continue reading Recovery is Lifelong
As we get sober and start down the path of recovery, we grow and often transform into a person we thought we'd never be, and as we grow we carry with us our most painful reminders of where we've been.
This coming Monday is the first day of my last year of school. I start my internship on Monday, and with that comes the return to the whirlwind of learning, stretching, bending, breaking, and re-making myself again. I will be interning with the county this time around, at their mental health clinic/partial hospitalization program. I … Continue reading Work, Sleep, and Other Ridiculous Things
They say acceptance is the final stage of grief. It is the goal, the endpoint, the last destination on the twisting journey you're set upon when you're in mourning. Our cultural understanding of grief has expanded far beyond death, divorce, and illness: it extends into loss of trust, loss of safety, loss of stability, loss … Continue reading Grant Me the Serenity