For me, recovery goes beyond alcohol & substances. For me, recovery expands into the relationship i have with my body and my eating. Having had an eating disorder when I was in high school, the urge to skip back into unhealthy patterns and thought cycles is strong at times. For me, recovery is an active … Continue reading Recovery, for me
Okay, folks. This is it. I am getting sober...from social media. Wish me luck—I know it's not going to be easy. This isn't the first time I've written a blog post like this. I have, over the past few years, deactivated and reactivated my social media accounts numerous times. My relationship with the social media … Continue reading Social Media Sobriety
Today, July 9, 2018, is my "soberversary." It's been two full years since my last drink. 730 days. 17,520 hours. Over a million minutes. Or something like that. I've been chewing on a lot of thoughts about where I am in all this for some time, now. Even still, they feel incomplete. I know there … Continue reading themes of recovery: observations from two years of sobriety
It's a beautiful, 50-degree, sun-shiny spring day today—finally. I'm sitting at one of my favorite cafes, looking out at the 4-foot tall piles of snow on the street corners, anxiously awaiting the arrival of our first 60-degree day this weekend. After what has felt like the longest winter in ages, the spring sun is a … Continue reading Spring Thinking
We cope with life's seasons by admitting we can't control the vast majority of what happens around us. Sometimes it helps--we keep trudging on and gripe about it in jest with each other, all while putting our faith into the idea that yes, this actually WILL pass. Someday. Somehow.
It’s 11:45am and I’m standing at the train station waiting to go to work, the sky hanging low and heavy with the promise of sleet. I'm late. I’ve just finished my morning internship shift, where I processed two clients out of our therapeutic relationship together because they’re both graduating next week, and I’m feeling pensive … Continue reading What Matters Most is How Well You Walk Through the Fire
It's an interesting thing, this life I'm leading these days. This intentionally sober life, with intentionally sober surroundings. I'm now a long-term sober person (1.5 years and counting) working as a mental health therapist with clients who are trying with all their power to get and stay sober. I am dating a sober person, and … Continue reading What About Long-Term Sobriety?
500 days ago, I made the decision to quit drinking. I wasn't sure how long I'd last, or if I'd encounter yet another failure to get myself off the ground and running, but I woke up on July 9, 2016 with some deep, core feeling that something had to change. It had to. I was … Continue reading 500 Days of Sobriety
Lately, I’ve been finding myself engaging in a weird behavior that makes me feel a little wary of myself. I don’t know if it’s complacency, boredom, or something else, but I’ve noticed that whenever I’m around people who are drinking, I’ve started asking them what it is they’re drinking, what they think of it, what … Continue reading I’m Smoking Cigarettes Again
Tonight I ran six miles in under an hour - 58 minutes, to be exact. I blistered my feet and finished with sweat dripping down my face and back. My legs are going to be really sore tomorrow. I ran through and around the wilderness reserve area by my dad's house. I'm staying the night … Continue reading Thanks, From the Past to the Present