Recovery, for me

For me, recovery goes beyond alcohol & substances. For me, recovery expands into the relationship i have with my body and my eating. Having had an eating disorder when I was in high school, the urge to skip back into unhealthy patterns and thought cycles is strong at times. For me, recovery is an active …

National Recovery Month — A Reason to Return

Today marks the beginning of National Recovery Month and I happen to be in a mental space that is just begging me to start writing down my thoughts before I explode. So... here I come back to this blog, after more than a year (?) of inconsistent writing. I can't make any promises, even though …

708 Days

Hi all. Here I am, day 708 of sobriety--1 year, 11 months, and 1 week since my last drink--and I am at ease. I'm just three short weeks from my two year anniversary and god, it all feels too normal and too surreal, all at the same time. I have so many thoughts about my …

What About Long-Term Sobriety?

It's an interesting thing, this life I'm leading these days. This intentionally sober life, with intentionally sober surroundings. I'm now a long-term sober person (1.5 years and counting) working as a mental health therapist with clients who are trying with all their power to get and stay sober. I am dating a sober person, and …

“That’s the person you’ve always been”

Yesterday I reached 1.5 years of sobriety. It was a quiet, uneventful day. I worked my long shift and took a nap when I got home, then had a lovely dinner and conversation with my partner, who is nearly 2 years sober. We talked about finding connection & community in sobriety, and the importance of …

Holiday Blear

Every year, Christmas feels a little less jolly to me than the last. I'm 100% not sure when or where that change started to happen - I'm thinking the initial decline began in 2014, the year my life blew up. 2013 was the first and last Christmas I'd ever have as married woman. My ex …

Sobriety is Impressive. Impress yourself.

Early sobriety is an emotionally, physically and mentally exhausting time for most people who give up drugs or alcohol. Even with the occasional burst of energy or positive feelings, enduring the roller coaster that is day 1 to day 90 is—to put it lightly—really freaking hard. Not only do you have to endure the initial …

Day 264 Alcohol Free

Hi sober friends. I’m here! On day 264 of my sobriety. 3/4 of the way through my first year. woohoo. I want to say thank you to all who showed me support on my last post. I was in a vulnerable emotional state that had been following me around for a while. Something having to …

Day 204 Alcohol-Free: Dive Bar Memories

I was feeling a little off today. A bit lonely, I guess. This happens every now and then, usually around my "time of the month," and can be a little draining, to say the least. I was driving home from the gym, after hosting another great writer's meetup group, and the desire to drive to …

200 Days Alcohol Free: A Reflection

January 24 marks 200 days of sobriety for me. Wow. 200. Looking back on my 100-day post, it's clear to me how much I'm still changing. The first 100 days consisted of a lot of emotional re-calibration. It's crazy to think back on the days where I would literally be so overwhelmed that I couldn't …