tw: talk about eating disorders. One thing I haven't spent a lot of time exploring in this space of mine is the fact that during my 10th-, 11th-, and 12th-grade years of high school, I suffered quietly with an eating disorder. I don't know exactly how it'd be diagnosed today, but I think the closest … Continue reading Recovery is Lifelong
As we get sober and start down the path of recovery, we grow and often transform into a person we thought we'd never be, and as we grow we carry with us our most painful reminders of where we've been.
I've been doing a lot of yoga lately. I started the practice last fall—shortly after my internship began—as a way to find some sort of "leveling force" for my life when things became a bit too chaotic or stressful. It was such a needed and welcome reprieve for me to walk into the dark yoga … Continue reading Yoga, Sobriety & Letting Go
I’ve been sick with a garden variety of head colds, chest colds, and sinus infections since early January. Since Monday of last week, I’ve been battling fatigue and a pretty intense cough that sent me to the urgent care on Thursday. They x-rayed me, tapped my sinuses, listened to my lungs, and decided to give … Continue reading Perfectionism makes me sick—literally
One of the best byproducts of this whole sobriety thing has been the steady increase in my drive to do well by myself, health-wise. When I was drinking, I'd always claim to lead a healthy lifestyle—I was doing the whole keto/paleo thing and counting calories and running and going for weekend hikes—but I refused to … Continue reading Getting (& Staying) Fit in Long-Term Sobriety
500 days ago, I made the decision to quit drinking. I wasn't sure how long I'd last, or if I'd encounter yet another failure to get myself off the ground and running, but I woke up on July 9, 2016 with some deep, core feeling that something had to change. It had to. I was … Continue reading 500 Days of Sobriety
Early sobriety is an emotionally, physically and mentally exhausting time for most people who give up drugs or alcohol. Even with the occasional burst of energy or positive feelings, enduring the roller coaster that is day 1 to day 90 is—to put it lightly—really freaking hard. Not only do you have to endure the initial … Continue reading Sobriety is Impressive. Impress yourself.
Today, a friend who I know through my boyfriend messaged me on Facebook. He wrote, "Hey, Em, would it be okay if I asked you a few questions about your sobriety/sobriety in general?" This is a friend who I don't know terribly well, but who has been very kind to me over the past 1.5+ … Continue reading “Is it OK if I ask you about sobriety?”
I've been riding my bike a lot in the past week and a half. Well, okay, so it's not my bike -- it's a loaner from my step mom, who never rides it but keeps it propped up in the garage just in case. My car's AC compressor went south on me, so while it … Continue reading Moving Meditations
I did it. I'm here. I've been sober for a whole year. I'm not even sure if or how that's possible - but, it must be. It's been 365 days since I took my last drink. And what a wild ride it's been.
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