Recovery, for me

For me, recovery goes beyond alcohol & substances. For me, recovery expands into the relationship i have with my body and my eating. Having had an eating disorder when I was in high school, the urge to skip back into unhealthy patterns and thought cycles is strong at times. For me, recovery is an active …

2018: A Sober Year in Review + What’s Next?

Well, friends. 2018's end is creeping near. A whole year, wrapping itself up nice and neat, topping itself with a shiny bow. And what a year it's been. It's hard to believe the kind of progress that can be made in a year. It's hard to believe what growth can occur, even through painful moments …

Work, Sleep, and Other Ridiculous Things

This coming Monday is the first day of my last year of school. I start my internship on Monday, and with that comes the return to the whirlwind of learning, stretching, bending, breaking, and re-making myself again. I will be interning with the county this time around, at their mental health clinic/partial hospitalization program. I …

Yoga, Sobriety & Letting Go

I've been doing a lot of yoga lately. I started the practice last fall—shortly after my internship began—as a way to find some sort of "leveling force" for my life when things became a bit too chaotic or stressful. It was such a needed and welcome reprieve for me to walk into the dark yoga …

Perfectionism makes me sick—literally

I’ve been sick with a garden variety of head colds, chest colds, and sinus infections since early January. Since Monday of last week, I’ve been battling fatigue and a pretty intense cough that sent me to the urgent care on Thursday. They x-rayed me, tapped my sinuses, listened to my lungs, and decided to give …

I am here now, and I am OK

Winter makes me exceedingly tired. Not just physically, but mentally & emotionally. I am starting to become exhausted. Somehow, I’ve convinced myself in recent years that the remedy to this is to do more: work more, volunteer my time more, go to graduate school, travel often, etc. But so often, even as I’m able to …

Going into the New Year with Intention

2017 was not a great year for the world at large by any stretch of the imagination (I won’t get into that), and it wasn’t even super stellar for me personally, but a lot of great, beautiful things happened in my life and in the lives of the people I love this year, and for …

Sobriety is Impressive. Impress yourself.

Early sobriety is an emotionally, physically and mentally exhausting time for most people who give up drugs or alcohol. Even with the occasional burst of energy or positive feelings, enduring the roller coaster that is day 1 to day 90 is—to put it lightly—really freaking hard. Not only do you have to endure the initial …

Moving Meditations

I've been riding my bike a lot in the past week and a half. Well, okay, so it's not my bike -- it's a loaner from my step mom, who never rides it but keeps it propped up in the garage just in case. My car's AC compressor went south on me, so while it …

One Year Sober: A Celebration and Reflection

I did it. I'm here. I've been sober for a whole year. I'm not even sure if or how that's possible - but, it must be. It's been 365 days since I took my last drink. And what a wild ride it's been.