When I got sober, I had to re-learn what it meant to be good to myself, to be kind to myself, and to choose my own health and happiness over others’ when necessary. If there’s one theme that has persisted across my relationships with others, especially over the last decade or so, it has been […]Read more "I Choose Me"
Today, a friend who I know through my boyfriend messaged me on Facebook. He wrote, “Hey, Em, would it be okay if I asked you a few questions about your sobriety/sobriety in general?” This is a friend who I don’t know terribly well, but who has been very kind to me over the past 1.5+ […]Read more "“Is it OK if I ask you about sobriety?”"
Tonight I ran six miles in under an hour – 58 minutes, to be exact. I blistered my feet and finished with sweat dripping down my face and back. My legs are going to be really sore tomorrow. I ran through and around the wilderness reserve area by my dad’s house. I’m staying the night […]Read more "Thanks, From the Past to the Present"
I’ve been riding my bike a lot in the past week and a half. Well, okay, so it’s not my bike — it’s a loaner from my step mom, who never rides it but keeps it propped up in the garage just in case. My car’s AC compressor went south on me, so while it […]Read more "Moving Meditations"
This summer has been pleasantly rejuvenating for me, for the most part. Aside from my emotional breakdown in June after I broke up—and then got back together with—my boyfriend, I’ve had a really good chance to take a step back and focus on self-care following the semester from hell this past spring. Despite having my […]Read more "Focusing Outward in Long-Term Sobriety"
I did it. I’m here. I’ve been sober for a whole year. I’m not even sure if or how that’s possible – but, it must be. It’s been 365 days since I took my last drink. And what a wild ride it’s been.Read more "One Year Sober: A Celebration and Reflection"
**Trigger warning: writing on intimate partner abuse, sexual assault, etc.** I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship. Er, well, if I can call it that. We’re technically broken up but have been actively talking about our issues and what it might mean to reconcile. And it’s really gotten me thinking: about me, my sobriety, […]Read more "Untangling My Brain Through Sobriety"