Tomorrow begins the first day of my last semester of graduate school. When the clock turned over from 2018 to 2019, I felt a renewed sense of excitement and anticipation. I was reminded of all the upcoming beginnings and endings. I felt sad and grateful and In May when I graduate, it will be 5 … Continue reading 2019: My Year to be Quiet
Well, friends. 2018's end is creeping near. A whole year, wrapping itself up nice and neat, topping itself with a shiny bow. And what a year it's been. It's hard to believe the kind of progress that can be made in a year. It's hard to believe what growth can occur, even through painful moments … Continue reading 2018: A Sober Year in Review + What’s Next?
When I write about how proud I am to be sober, it's true. When I write about how grateful I am for everything I've been through, it's true. When I celebrate all of life's complexity and uncertainty and weirdness, that celebration is sincere. And, when I write about feeling completely untethered and uncertain about anything at all, that's just as true as the rest, if not more so.
A few weeks ago, I was sitting in a one-on-one session with a new client of mine. This client came to therapy on her own volition to seek help with her depression, anxiety, isolation, and substance use issues. During this session, she became tearful as she spoke, and I could feel the pain emanating from … Continue reading Sitting with it
A few weeks ago, I wrote about a problem I was having with longstanding pain throughout my body. Most notably, I had been dealing with a searing pain in my shoulder and a general feeling of tightness, tension, and dull aching around my neck, my shoulders, and throughout my back. My therapist suggested I find … Continue reading Brain Magic for All Kinds of Pain: the Curable App
I have been feeling...disconnected from my sobriety lately. It's becoming more and more difficult for me to connect the current events of my life to being sober. It's true, much of what I have now wouldn't be in my life were I not sober. I probably wouldn't be dating my boyfriend. I wouldn't be living … Continue reading Feeling Disconnected from Sobriety
The Minnesota skyline of late has been a long, thick sheet of steely clouds, dotted occasionally with brief openings that reveal the sunshine above. It's a good reflection of my mood and energy--or, perhaps, my mood and energy are a direct reflection of the weather. I do tend to suffer that seasonal problem with being...oh, … Continue reading Grey Day Rambling